here it is

i suppose its time for a new ramble session! ive been thinking a lot lately about my new found ability to drive. its weird not having people in the car with you. not sayin i dont like having my license but im just sayin...

so i head off on a seemingly endless adventure to sunny san diego in the morning. still not sure as to how im feeling about the situation. there are people i like going and there are people im not to fond of going. I suppose ill be fine im just worried about it when im thinkin. then again i felt the same way befor i was born and im doin fine now.

my mom sent me grocery shopping the other day and i cant say i had fun. i mean it costed 8 bucks for 3 grains of rice...bummer, but that has nothing to do with the price of potatoes (which by the way is insaine)

well hannah montana just came on and im sure you all know i cant stand to miss an episode of that!

This is probably boring to read for most people

Ok so im just gonna lay it all out on the table. I like the most amazing girl in the world. i had an incredibly boring day today until i called someone. I got to talk to Breanna and i completely loved today!! shes so fun to talk to and shes an incredible musician and shes so beautiful! i just cant get over how lucky i am!!

My Summer Escapades

I love my life!! so after 2 weeks of camps, im finally home.

WEEK 1: Hume Lake with Merge!! one of the best weeks in my life. Really learned a lot about my faith and about myself. it made me realize how great God is and how blessed i am. I got a chance to talk and get to know Nater Tater. Hes is an incredible person and im so stoked to see how he works with Merge! i also got to hang with Breanna a lot!!! shes so great! :) Shes so much fun and shes so sweet and sarcastic and funny and beautiful and incredible and shes just amazing!

WEEK 2: Leader at Hume San Diego! I really got a chance to connect with the students. I met one kid who came to camp as a non christian. by the end of camp he started to ask some amazing questions and really started to question the bible!! as bad as that sounds, in christianity its always a good way to start. Im really looking foreward to working with him to grow his faith.

During week 2 of camps, i came across a fairly important day in my life...my 16th birthday!!! its finally come!! i get my license next saturday and im stoked!! However...this means its time for a job. Ive been applying at a couple places already and its only going to continue. But either way, im stoked to be home and get back to life. that life in which includes Breanna :) im so stoked to hang out with her!! im actually going to her best friends birthday party tonight so i get to see her for the first time in a week!!!

An intersting decision on an ordinary day

So today started just like any other summer day, sleeping late, waking up to eat food that should not be eaten for breakfast, spilling soda on my freshly cleaned white t shirt, you know the usual. However, i looked at my phone to recieve a call from Eddie Miles (the jr high pastor at cornerstone). For those of you that dont know, i have been a leader for the jr highers for the past few months. Well during this phone call he asked me if i was willing to give up a week to head over to Hume San Diego to be a leader. My inicial thought was yes!! So i asked him when we would be leaving. He hesitated and then informed me that it was the morning after i get back from Hume Lake with my high school group :/ I would have about 7 hours to go home, unpack, do a ton of laundry, pack everything back up and head back over to church to get back on a bus and drive some more. OUCH!! so all day i was back and forth and prayed numerous times about what i should do. I then went to Camber (the college service) and Eddie was there to ask if anyone wanted to help jr high on sundays and wednesdays and such. God definately answered my prayers and as he was up there speaking i felt a calling to give up my time for the jr highers. Camp is such an amazing experience and i am so excited to be able to be a part of that for these kids. I cant wait to see what kids get put in my cabin and what God does for the kids i get to share my week with.

Before i even get to spend my week with them, i get to head to Hume Lake with my high school group! I get to spend an incredible week with some of my best friends and someone im really looking forward to spending a week with :) I cant wait to see what God has in store for me and what amazing speakers can shake up my heart!

Thoughts from the tip of my tongue

So im definately liking this gift that God gaves us (i believe its called life). Tonight was an extremely good night, i showed up at 5 to just hang and talk and "fix" andrews mac haha :) but it ended up being extremely interesting to hear what sterbz and sterbz had to say about dating and hopefully i will be able to apply the advice they gave us in the next relationship im in :) but i got to hang out with someone today and i really enjoyed it :) as each day comes i begin to look forward to Hume more and more!! the bus ride should be fun!! across the isle will be an extremely fun person :) i cant wait!! 3 days :)

Life is funny when your trying to be serious

why is it that when i try to take life seriously and work hard, i seem to end up joking around? whats ironic about that is that i seem to find myself working hard when i want to just chill out and have some fun. I was hanging out with some friends tonight and nothing crazy was happening but i kept finding myself wanting to act like their parent when something would happen. I finally realized i just need to chill and let them live their lives and all my parenting work seemed to work out. Its weird how backwards life truly is. Like when i really like a girl and i decide to go full force into getting into a relationship, i seem to screw it up before it really starts. but when i meet a girl thats totally fun to be around and to talk to and shes really cute and just a really gnarly girl, and i just talk to her and get to know her and try to be her friend, it all seems to work out! i guess what im trying to say is i need to stop trying. I just need to take life as it comes and make sure i do what i need to do to get by and my life will play out just as God intended it to! I just wish that i could permanently apply this rule to my life. I wish that my initial reaction would be to just go with it instead of fighting it.

I met a girl very recently and though i havent hung out with her besides when i met her, i feel like im really beginning to know her. Its kind of a funny feeling but i cant say i dont like it. what this has to do with the beginning of this blog is that i took it slow. i didnt go into this whole thing by saying hey i think your really cute and cool we should date, im just talking to her and hangin out with her and getting to know who she really is befor i decide if i like her or if she would just be a really rad friend to have. I cant complain about anything though so thats all i have to say

i hate staying up late

so today was incredible. i had to dress up as a gorilla and stand in the blazing sun to hand out bananas to the new 7th graders :/ thats what i get for volunteering for the jr high ministry. I was light headed for a good hour haha. But then i got to go to merge and listen to our new, amazing pastor. After losing Ryan i was pretty convinced that no one would ever be able to win me over...well i was wrong. He immediatly took hold of my heart and i can understand exactly why God has put him in my life. im so stoked to see what he has to offer and how he will change my life and the lives of all of my fellow students at merge. We then had some time to hang out with Nathan and get to know him and his family. i really connected with his daughter Breanna! she seems really cool and she has an amazing heart. she played a song she wrote and im in awe, she completely dominates my music abilities haha. i really hope to get to know her and her entire family better. i cant wait for Hume Lake to come so i can get away and spend some quality time with my best friend, Jesus Christ. im also going to get to hang with chris metzger who i really miss hanging out with :( but i got to hang with him today :) the Maples fam with be there also which an exciting thing to think about! only 6 more days!!!!!!!