Life is funny when your trying to be serious

why is it that when i try to take life seriously and work hard, i seem to end up joking around? whats ironic about that is that i seem to find myself working hard when i want to just chill out and have some fun. I was hanging out with some friends tonight and nothing crazy was happening but i kept finding myself wanting to act like their parent when something would happen. I finally realized i just need to chill and let them live their lives and all my parenting work seemed to work out. Its weird how backwards life truly is. Like when i really like a girl and i decide to go full force into getting into a relationship, i seem to screw it up before it really starts. but when i meet a girl thats totally fun to be around and to talk to and shes really cute and just a really gnarly girl, and i just talk to her and get to know her and try to be her friend, it all seems to work out! i guess what im trying to say is i need to stop trying. I just need to take life as it comes and make sure i do what i need to do to get by and my life will play out just as God intended it to! I just wish that i could permanently apply this rule to my life. I wish that my initial reaction would be to just go with it instead of fighting it.

I met a girl very recently and though i havent hung out with her besides when i met her, i feel like im really beginning to know her. Its kind of a funny feeling but i cant say i dont like it. what this has to do with the beginning of this blog is that i took it slow. i didnt go into this whole thing by saying hey i think your really cute and cool we should date, im just talking to her and hangin out with her and getting to know who she really is befor i decide if i like her or if she would just be a really rad friend to have. I cant complain about anything though so thats all i have to say